The year working at one and then another sign shop provided me with a big boost with my abilities with a brush. When the circus season was over, Beth returned from the road. She parked her trailer near the house I shared with Doug. For company on the show, she had adopted kittens. We merged our lives once again. But this time our rhythms were quite different. This was a tough time. My road rhythm had been interrupted. The hours at the shop, immersed in an employee mentality was augmented with my emerging entrepreneurial mentality as I was getting close to matching my paycheck each weekend with snapping.
Our love had lasted. We resumed our routine together and explored opportunities for the future. Being on this deliberate avenue, immersed in contemporary commerce opened my eyes to new horizons. Although locked into my pattern of regular consumption of alcohol, a seed had been planted. I asked Beth if she could ever think about living a life without drinking.
“Oh no, I could never do that,” she replied, “I’d always want to have fun.”
Beth hadn’t changed, she was still the beautiful showgirl I had fallen in love with. She had just completed another tour of one day stands performing with the circus and sought to resume our union. I was distracted. Entrepreneurial awareness was growing as the result of transactions taking place at the marina and my network was expanding. I suppose I was impatient. My world had expanded in a year. I was resisting.
I tried to excite her with the concept of the leading edge of the vast options I only had a hint of. I used some of the same proactive imaginings that had been used on me.
I asked, “where do you see yourself in ten years?”
“Right here with you.”
I should have received this as the compliment it was but my head was in the clouds or up my posterior. I could only survey the vast sea of possibilities and remain asleep in this relationship with Beth. A new tension entered the arena.
Due to demands from my dad who was overseeing my ponies on pasture back in Arkansas, I began to receive pressure to sell the act. The timing could not have been worse. This was actually the time to plan our future and both horse acts were in their prime. The pony act was a good small business enjoying fallow time on pasture in Arkansas, but my dad did not see the significance that this huge investment represented. Not being from a circus background, he could only see things his way. He didn’t see the value in having a seasoned liberty act that I could use professionally or appreciate that the disappointment of last spring had actually allowed me a year of respite to learn an admirable trade. Confusion entered the arena of my mind.
This pressure coming from him was sad for a couple of reasons. The first was since the act had several seasons under their belt and I had a wonderful woman ready to share this life, I was actually ready to thrive. The strain was about to force my hand and alter the future I sought. This act had taken me halfway across Canada, all of New England, the eastern seaboard and the south. Resuming this career could start now. I had a rig and the livestock was ready.
I relented, gave in and began to organize literature describing and depicting my act. I got the word out in the circus world that they were for sale. A big producer, who had his own circus from Toronto called and wanted to buy my beloved ponies for his son to work in his show. We made a deal. I told Forrest at the Sign King and Beth I had to go.
I went back to Arkansas, gathered up the ponies and loaded them in the Fruehauf, cranked up the truck and headed out late winter. The closer I got to Ontario the colder it got. I hadn’t had the truck in freezing weather before and had heard horror stories about how a diesel would freeze up and not be able to start. After arriving at the home of Ian and Mercedes Garden, I demonstrated the liberty act without a ring curb in a muddy paddock next to their barn. After a year and a half hiatus the ponies worked beautifully. Ian was pleased. The deal was sealed.
The Garden Bros Circus was already touring. The ponies would begin performing immediately. After unhooking from the Fruehauf, Ian had his truck backed underneath and hooked on. I watched with sadness in my eyes as my beloved Fruehauf slowly disappeared down their driveway and out onto the road on that gray overcast, cold day. I bought an electric cord to plug in the block heater on the truck. I was treated to an evening of hospitality and a good night’s sleep at their home before bob-tailing back to the USA.
Ian Jr. began performing with my ponies on Garden Bros Circus for eight seasons. Those were years I could have enjoyed with Beth. I found out whenever he was asked who had trained the ponies, he simply claimed that he had. That answer was not honest. I never received credit for the huge start up hurdle, the years performing to get them solid and the huge initial investment. The act was later sold to Diane Moyer, an animal trainer who performed with my ponies for several more years.
For all that I learned, experienced, and achieved, I have plenty of reasons to thank those little yellow ponies. They introduced me to thinking outside of myself and gave direction for my love. Although I never became highly successful as a performing horseman, I did continue to become an effective businessman in other arenas and better connected relationally.
Mankind has lived in symbiosis with horses for centuries. Horse sense existed as the result of these interactions. The horses really do have something to teach us. It is only during the past hundred years that horses are no longer used to assist man with everyday tasks and now myriad mental disorders plague the family, community, government and world. Go figure. Today, I find the discovery remarkable that horses are used for therapy for deep psychological issues that plague humanity.
I have tasted the healing benefit of being in relationship with horses. I do not understand the benefit being promoted by ethical treatment groups for the euthanization of these wonderful creatures that God placed in our midst for a reason. The same mentality that drives their desire for destruction could be healed through the opposite tack; entering into symbiosis with horses. The same dynamic that drives these groups that want to eliminate these majestic creatures would be healed through finding connection and harmony and the end result would be the accumulation of the valuable mental commodity called horse sense. I know this. I have received many blessings through my connection with horses.
The ponies taught me to be functional with my behavior, led me to mentors who taught the importance of discipline, the value of consistent patience and encouragement. These qualities paved the way for me to find greater abilities and achieve other ambitions. As the years went by, travel remained constant in my life. My career began to look different, evolving as I continued to become a better showman, using my skills as an artist to finance these goals. Eventually my role as an artist became primary and I have these experiences to thank.
The ponies actually taught me more than I ever taught them. As we traversed this country as a team, we overcame obstacles that occurred and won our way into the hearts of circus goers all along the way.
The fabulous year on the King Bros Circus during my career as a circus performer remains the fondest memory I have of life enjoyed on the circus. The rich tradition, the series of one day stands, sharing the sunshiny days where everything merged into a heavenly experience with a wonderful woman was just part of it. I enjoyed the crowds that became enthralled, the children who received an imprint and the colleagues who shared enthusiasm. The runaway egos of performers who sought approval from large groups transformed this dynamic into a foundation for pure entertainment. These memories remain as evidence that the original intention to join the circus was perhaps the smartest thing I have ever done.




