Tragedy


When we were little children, an event took place that was monumental in our development. Paula was alone one day, inspecting the old ceramic figure brought from Germany that our great grandfather used to keep cigars in. This was in a forbidden area for children: the living room glass display case with other valuable mementos. She was fascinated with the details of the robust woman’s figure and the period garb that lifted to reveal the contents. I saw my sister in passing. Although I knew that wasn’t a good idea, I was just as curious about what she had found. John came bounding along and recognized the breach.  

“Put that back!” he attempted control. 

“No,” Paula chimed, “You can’t make me.” 

He became bossy and told her to put it back, “I’m gonna tell.” 

This only promoted resistance to his demands. When he reached for the container, Paula drew back and it fell, breaking into a thousand pieces.     

  When mother discovered the three of us and the broken heirloom, we were sent to our rooms, to await the wrath of dad when he got home. The task of doling out discipline with a spanking was his to deliver. 

When dad got home and learned that we had broken this valuable item, he headed up to our rooms where we waited. After climbing the stairs, he reprimanded my older brother first. I heard screaming and crying as his bare bottom was spanked. I was terrified at what was coming. My dad came into my room and even before it was my turn, I screamed and yelled in terror. Then I cried as my backside received punishment.  

When it became Paula’s turn, not a peep was heard. She received the same punishment but didn’t react. I learned later, as an act of defiance, she made the decision to not to feel anything. She felt that the punishment was not deserved because she blamed our brother for the breakage. From that point on, I saw my sister go through life cautious about others and her feelings. She was always reluctant, avoiding any emotional extreme, whether it be happiness or refusing to cry when sad. She essentially maintained a flat line emotionally, for the rest of her life. 

Circus Day

As a tyke holding my mother’s hand, while walking onto a grass lot, I saw my first canvas tents in the air with flags flying. I heard the tinny voice of the side show barker over a loudspeaker mix with the distant sounds of roaring lions, the exotic smell of elephants, cotton candy and popping popcorn.  

While taking in this sensory overload, I heard my mother confide, “Your dad would love this.” 

I was sold on the spot! 

I was inspired by my dad’s love for many things. My dad loved railroad trains, photography, dirigibles, and the civil war. Later, I would hear about the circus of his youth. I savored the stories about the remarkable sights he witnessed during the summer when he was a boy. He woke before sunrise to gather with the other boys at the railroad tracks to wait for the circus train to arrive. When the distant headlight first appeared, its piercing light provided the first spike of excitement. 

He told me about the early morning feast for their eyes as the circus train moved into position and started the unloading process of wagons, horses, trucks, elephants and special equipment from the flat and stock cars. This process took place with amazing fluency. He watched an incredible enterprise populated with hundreds of people, portable objects of wonder and animals of all kinds unload destined for the show grounds.  

A beehive of activity resulted in a canvas city rising into the air before noon. An entire spectrum of preparations were completed by a predictable time. The two shows; a matinee and an evening show were given the same day. After the second show, the entire aggregation was taken down and reloaded on the train. When complete, a steam locomotive began to pull this amazing collection of everything wonderful out of town and into the dark toward its next destination.  

Although not the big railroad circus, this version traveling on a fleet of trucks that came to our town was amazing none the less. After seeing this big top circus, I became keen about seeing it every year. When summer came, I began to look for circus posters in store windows and on telephone poles. 

Imprinted with the same love my dad had for the circus, I began my pattern of getting up early to see the morning arrival of the Clyde Beatty-Cole Bros Circus, the large canvas big top truck show that made a regular visit to our fairgrounds.  

As I grew, I became able to get a job helping set up the tents early on circus day. Then after seeing the show, like my dad before me, I was inspired with the idea of producing an even greater circus production in our backyard.  

I created apparatus for my backyard circus and painted the decorative advertising that goes with such a production. I was shaped by new thought, old tradition, love and enthusiasm to find adventure with my creative outlet. 

Each summer I produced a different revue. The usual circus performance was made up of children recruited to perform various acts – clowns, trapeze and acrobats. One year, I made cigar box guitars and a potato chip can drum set for a Beatles concert.  

After receiving a chemistry set and becoming familiar with several sensational experiments, my best friend Arnold Vila helped me create a show called “Chemistry Magic.” Working with limited resources didn’t slow us down. One demonstration aptly called; purple smoke was produced by cooking iodine crystals over a Bunsen burner. Because we used the same beaker later in the show we had to cook off all the crystals until gone and the cloud of smoke produced almost asphyxiated our audience.  

Even though I felt my shows were worth every bit of the dime I charged, my mother always served Kool-Aid and cookies to everyone who attended, so she knew they got their money’s worth.   

A blend of these creative activities coalesced in all sorts of childhood endeavors that included display building and painting artwork on virtually everything that moved. After discovering my dad’s boyhood model circus wagon building efforts, I began building my miniature circus from scratch. 

Adolescent Society

I grew and excelled on my tricycle. John’s handicap pronounced his awkward nature. As the other kids noticed his clumsy efforts, they teased him mercilessly. This was my first exposure to ridicule in the outside world. I became cautious around the other kids in the neighborhood. They were cruel. 

That didn’t change the desire in John’s heart to attempt join in on the play he saw. Perhaps the missing social cog in his brain was a blessing. Instead of being affected by the mob mentality of the kids on our block, he seemed to remain in his own little world. 

As I grew, I graduated to a bicycle. I developed a fearless nature on two wheels and explored our neighborhood. John still rode his tricycle. You could see he still wanted to take part in the fun he saw taking place around him.  

In an effort to speed things up, he stood on the platform between the rear wheels of his tricycle and pushed with one foot. That way he could keep up with the gaggle. But what about when he needed to stop. He had no brakes. John figured out that by dragging one foot, toe down, against the sidewalk, he could slow himself down. The system worked fine until the leather of his shoe wore through and his toes were exposed. As he continued with this system, he had to curl his toes up more and more inside what was left of his shoe. When dad got home and saw the front of one of his shoes worn off, he exploded.  

Such was life with John. Observing what we considered to be his uncoordinated, awkward and less than brilliant mishaps, I unconsciously joined the others in criticizing my older brother. Yet, in spite of the growing separation of the fabric of our family, John developed an uncanny intellect. He began to compose rebuttal to all of our taunting.  

John’s response to the teasing fueled rage and transformed into hatred. As his brother, just trying to find my way, I observed these senseless, ugly social interactions. Virtually overnight all the people on the planet appeared to me to be cruel and that prompted my decision; I will be better off alone. I became determined to figure out how to do everything by myself. This decision set the stage for my reclusive, driven desire to create, and became the pattern for my life. 

916 Woodlawn

With three infants at home, opportunity knocked. Father took a job in Springfield, Ohio, and moved the family. Dad’s role in Ohio became public relations advocate for Wittenberg College. While there he continued as a supply pastor for the Lutheran synod, and later, a fund raiser for the Osterlein Home for Children. Dad created slide show presentations, had meetings with influential patrons and produced sermons in churches he traveled to across the Midwest. This path capitalized on his talents as spokesman and problem solver and took him on the adventures across the Midwest he loved. Taking to the highway in his Pontiac, the wanderlust that filled his imagination became a trait he eventually passed on to me.

As the wife of a pastor, mother coped with dad’s frequent travel by becoming the choir director for the Fourth Lutheran Church just a few blocks away. Also, during her eleven years with the Civic Opera in Springfield, Ohio, she sang the leading roles in at least three operas including “Samantha Southwick” and “the Old Maid and the Thief,” and supporting roles in many others. She also taught piano as the head of the Junior Piano Department at Wittenberg University for eleven years.
Dad’s work with the university and the Lutheran synod took him across Ohio and Indiana. When I was a child, dad was gone during much of the week. Mother managed with three children and her career with the help of a live-in student of Wittenberg University. Due to her active career in the Opera and with singing groups, mom never developed cooking skills. My father actually taught her how to cook an egg.  In addition to all the duties of family and career, mother did the meal planning in advance so Sue Feidler, our nanny, could simply place the stuff in the oven when she got out of class and have dinner ready at the right time.
Mother’s values and personality were formed during the depression when her family occasionally went without food. We were taught to have regard for every morsel on our plate. Dad appreciated her thrifty nature. They shared a special moment with each other when dad brought pastry home, something she considered pure luxury.

We ate at a properly set table. All the plates sat in front of father who, after the blessing, served what mother had prepared and passed them to us. We were taught to sit up straight, how to use our utensils properly and use good manners at the table.

To encourage us to appreciate her cooking, dad enrolled us with exuberant patter to get us to eat whatever was left in the serving dishes. 
“Help finish this off,” he would say, as another serving of something was placed on our plates, “Here, have another bite.”

Eager to please my dad, I learned to eat everything on my plate.
I did my part to finish that extra spoonful, but my sister had a different response. She too, was encouraged to eat everything. Yet, once having eaten it all, rather that receiving accolades, she heard, “here, help finish this off,” and an extra portion of mashed potatoes were plopped onto her plate. In disbelief, she became really disappointed. The inner thought “this is not fair,” welled up inside her. She became silently rebellious. Unknown to us, defiance became the foundational force that drove her personality.

Did Picasso Start This Way?

Harried and disheveled, she encircled the house.  The green and yellow mid-length sundress, in style during the fifties, was a blur.  A stiff, fall breeze brought with it, a nip and spiked urgency in her current task.  Along the perimeter, she noticed that the painters had left ladders leaning up against the house, and one near the front porch.  Paint spotted canvas tarps spread over the bushes flapped in the frigid wind.  She stopped momentarily to review the scene. She noticed a warm shade of parsley colored paint. Redecorating began to cover-up the weathered white clapboard siding. This was my parent’s first house; the color promised to transform their purchase into a warm abode they could happily call home. 

But nothing was going as planned with the painting project. Words of discouragement and frustration were not necessary as anyone could see the disappointment in mom’s eyes.  For the workmen didn’t show up when they said that they would. And the removal of the old peeling layers of paint didn’t meet her husband’s approval.  

Unfortunately, he was initiating a mission congregation for the Lutheran church.  His job came first. He would be away all day.  To add to his wife’s frustration, she had three children in diapers.   

Sometimes mother thought that nothing was worse than managing the innumerable home improvements without father. At other times she didn’t seem to mind. As it was becoming clear, it would be longer than they said before the painting was finished. As she had these thoughts, her white canvas tennis shoes gingerly stepped around things the painters left out in the open. Her ongoing property management review was a source of frustration at the end of each day. 

Behind the single car garage, mom found the painting crew wrapping up.  These men had full gallons and, a few half buckets of paint, rags, stir sticks, jugs of solvents strewn with empty cans of every shape and size. 

The taller of the two workmen rose slowly from his squatted position in the proximity of a bucket full of thinner. He washed his large brushes at a leisurely pace. This act commenced the final act of his workday.  His white coveralls were spotted with paint. He paused from what he was doing and looked up as my mother approached them.  His attention was clearly focused on his impending departure.  His short partner had a dark mustache, curly hair with a receding hairline and a soggy cigar stub in his mouth that had been there all day.  Sitting on the tailgate of their old pickup truck, he gently manipulated his brush back and forth in an old towel; evidence that they were knocking off early. 

“You men make sure you put all of this paint away somewhere,” Arleen pleaded. She made a sweeping gesture with her hand that held a large safety pin.  They displayed the deer in the headlights look as she spoke.  Her tone was urgent and peppered with annoyance. Partly because this job wasn’t done yet. 

“Yeah, sure lady,” the short one offered, as he exchanged a look at his partner. 

“I’ve got young children here. I don’t want them getting into this paint,” she continued as she surveyed the painter’s inventory. 

A loud wail from a baby pierced the quiet afternoon and my mother veered back to the house.  Moments later, the workmen were in their truck rolling down the alley. They had left their supplies right where they were, so they would be handy the next day. 

My dad’s quick pace up the front steps occurred prior to dusk that day. His pressed shirt was tucked in and had a special fold on either side that was still crisp at the end of the day.  Every hair was held in place with Vaseline hair tonic and his oxford shoes were highly polished.  Well-groomed and beaming, he was anxious to share with my mother how his church activities had progressed that day.  When he found her sobbing in a heap, his demeanor changed to caring concern. My mother was emotionally spent. She was normally optimistic and filled with sweetness and gratitude for life.  She had reached her limit.  She simply did not know what else to do.  The regimen of processing diapers, managing the household and pursuing her musical career had taken its toll on her patience. This day threw her into a sobbing heap. 

“What’s going on honey?” dad inquired. 

Not feeling fully in control, all she could do was point to the backyard. 

He quickly left to investigate.  Behind the garage he found us and what a sight this must have been.  My older brother had found a fascinating pastime.  He was very observant after he learned to walk.  He had watched the workmen slowly paint the outside of our house. And as a result, he had something to share with me. So, I had willingly followed and crawled along behind him to see the amazing sight. 

I was amazed.  The backyard held a vast inventory of liquid color.  My brother found a six-inch paintbrush and proceeded to show me what he had observed earlier in the day.  Holding the brush, he demonstrated what he had seen the workmen do. He dipped the brush to the hilt in the paint.  I was proud he had a command of this profession at such a young age!  With paint dripping down his fingers from the brush held high, he looked for a suitable canvas.  Apparently, my giggle of approval inspired him and I was selected to receive a thorough coat of green paint.  The brush strokes were deft, effective and stimulating and soon I was fully covered and barely recognizable. 

My brother had spills and drips across his lap and paint all over his hands, arms, bottom and feet when my father discovered us.  I proudly displayed a complete coat of paint that would have made any artisan proud.  My dad secretly smiled at what he had found: a colorful disaster. 

My father settled into the inevitable clean-up. He tried but failed as the family disciplinarian.  His careful qualities were appropriate now.  He took solvent and rags and began the procedure. His heart went out to his little sons and the mischief they had created.   

As time passed, remembering the event became a source of humor for my family.  Not only was this a funny point in our lives, the event imprinted me positively.  In hindsight, I have plenty to be thankful for. My brother was thoughtful enough to introduce me to the joy of painting. 

I’m Glad I Called

           “What’cha doing?” I asked innocently in an effort to start the phone conversation.

“Oh, David,” My mother bubbled, “I’ve been having the most wonderful time.” 

She went on to explain that during a recent visit, my sister bagged up a bunch of clutter from the attic but before the bags were carted off to the dumpster, my mother wanted to have a look inside. If her enthusiasm was any clue, the discovery she made was significant.  Next came the announcement that she had found all the sheet music from when she was in the quartet “The Melodears” back in Chicago in the mid-forties, before she met my dad. Walking on air, she leafed through the cherished musical scores, relived memories of her youth and sang those wonderful songs. 

           “What timing,” I thought as I listened to her happy story.  She went on to tell me she also found a music professor at a nearby university interested in having the antique sheet music for their collection.  

            “That,” she said, “is much better than all this wonderful music landing in a dumpster.” 

The pleasant surprise of finding my mother elated heightened my gratitude.  I am fortunate to have a sweet, joy-filled mother. She looked for the beauty that surrounded her every day. Since my father’s passing, I knew she was lonely.  I began to call her twice a week. My intention was to provide comfort. Each conversation revealed more to love. As the months went by, we became good friends.  

My interest piqued, after a moment I asked when her love for music began and about memorable achievements along the way. She perused the thought, giggled and began to tell me a story. 

The first official announcement of her career intention occurred in homeroom class during the height of the great depression. The fifth-grade teacher went around the room and asked each student what he or she wanted to do with their life.  

When Arleen’s turn came, she stood and said “I want to sing” and the whole class burst out laughing. 

She started with voice lessons. Soon she was in both chorus at school, choir at church and sang occasional solos. Soon with Amy, who became her longtime friend, she became part of a duet.  

After High School she received a scholarship to attend the Sherwood Music School. During WWII at the first FM radio station in Chicago she became the program director. She selected peppy, vocal-free music for her program ‘Music for War Workers’ from a library of 78rpm records and even larger commercial discs.  

While working at the radio station she also sang in a trio at church. Encouraged by one of her friends, an audition downtown secured a position for a rigorous season with the Municipal Opera of St Louis, where the company performed a new operetta every week. The following year a tour with the Chicago Popular Opera Company took her all over the country and to Denver where the company fizzled out.  

Back in Chicago, an audition with an agent started a tour of state fairs and school assembly programs with the ‘Charm Quartet,’ a trio of vocalists with piano. 

Becoming independent, the group became the ‘Melodears.’ At a church mortgage burning celebration she met the student intern assistant to the pastor who ended up also being invited to the choir party later on, but he needed a ride. Since my mom had a car, the girls went to pick him up and the rest was history. 

Our regular telephone conversations covered a variety of topics. My life on the road provided plenty of news to share with my mother. Plus, many aspects of my path of recovery from alcoholism found similarities with the spiritual path mother was on.  I found new fascination with this woman I have known my entire life. I continued with the interview style of call she enjoyed and I learned more. 

As the wife of a pastor, my mother became choir director for the church. During thirteen years with the Civic opera in Springfield, Ohio, she sang lead roles in two operas; ‘Samantha Southwick’ and ‘Old Maid and the Thief’ and supporting roles in all the others.  

My favorite memory as a child was waking to the sweet melody that drifted upstairs and into my consciousness every morning. Mom rose early to practice singing her scales at the piano. This early imprint established my enthusiasm for the morning and for all the new day brings.  

She taught piano as head of the junior piano department at Wittenberg University for eleven years and later when we moved to Bloomington, Indiana she taught piano and voice as well as when we lived in Arlington Heights, Illinois. 

When my folks built their retirement home in the Ozarks of Arkansas, her piano playing and singing continued. At age sixty-six she began as a paid soloist at the Christian Science church and continued singing in that role for twenty years. As a testimony of the joy in her heart, she was still singing professionally at eighty-six. During one of our conversations she laughed.  

She shared something with me that her voice teacher back in Chicago told her during her early teens; “if you take good care of yourself, you will still be singing at sixty-five.” 

My mother’s example made me think back to the sequence of events that molded my career. As the years went by, I grew artistically, spiritually, emotionally, and my motive changed.  At one time I was ego driven to be the greatest I could be. Now I realize that true satisfaction is the byproduct of being of service to others. My passion for painting is evidenced by the amount of completed work that continues to this day.   

With each passing year, the amount of old time pinstripers and airbrush artists diminishes. This leaves a larger market to a few artisans who thrive creating in the century’s old tradition. One decade at a time my mother’s career was revealed. Like her, the sequence of events that take place continues to reveal new direction in mine. 

My mother’s relentless optimism, singing and efforts to inspire others provide me with clarity. My goal is similar; to be a blessing to others, to have fun while interacting with them and to share the gifts I have received. This in turn creates memories for other people to cherish and enjoy.  

As I pause this day to appreciate the beauty I am surrounded with and the wonderful people I am of service to, the peace inside increases the level of joy in my heart and I feel like singing a happy tune, just like my mother.  

            I am glad I called.

El Shaddiai


During the years I lived in the compact quarters in the front of my horse trailer, I learned to discard something every time I acquired something new.  My routine changed from being on the road all over the country into commuting each day to Lazydays from Gee Gee’s elephant farm. I was successful, yet I guessed I would always just be living in a trailer.  

I recalled my friend Terry in Indiana. He encouraged me to have a home someday. My mother hoped along with my growing circle of friends that someday I would find contemporary stability. I planned to settle in Sarasota someday but with this opportunity at Lazydays I did not want a long commute. I liked being close to a big town but wanted a home in the country with zero restrictions. Again, Jack proved helpful. 

I had no experience with the home buying process. Jack helped me put together the criteria of what I wanted: a horse property, room for vehicles, remote but close to a big town etc. I did not want to be in the traffic close to Tampa. By looking east, Plant City became my target. I began a search for a home of my own.  I looked at several places while riding along with a real estate agent. One stood out from the rest.   

A two-and-a-half-acre property was loaded with big beautiful Live Oak trees. The ranch style home was long and low with sturdy block construction and a stucco exterior made to look like brick. The two-stall barn out back was perfect for Sir and Betty and the outside perimeter was already fenced in.  I fell in love with the place. 

My friend at Overcomer’s was also interested in what I found. Lee accompanied me to see the place I favored. While there, Lee offered to lift this quest up to God. We knelt in prayer. He started by thanking God for his power at work in our lives. After he asked for guidance in regard to the purchase of this place, I added to the prayer. I affirmed that if in fact this place was meant for me, I would dedicate it to friendship. The real estate transaction flowed to a sweet end. 

At one point my mother asked me what my new address was so she could send me something. When I recited to her the street name El Shaddiai she gasped.  

“Do you know what that means?” 

“No, I don’t.” 

“It’s Hebrew and one of the names for God,” she revealed, “God the provider.” 

That fact provided clarity about my new home. 

Before I could pull my rig onto the property, I had to have several loads of dirt dumped in a low area and have gravel spread to make a big driveway. During my years on the road, I camped in other people’s driveways. I wanted others to have the same opportunity here. A long and wide driveway also provided Jack a place to park his motorhome.  

The next few years saw tremendous growth on this slice of heaven. I began building and improving.  Priority was a round pen. The real estate lady’s son-in-law was available to work and knew how to trim trees. We also improved the fencing with railroad ties. 

I erected a large pole barn in the rear corner of the property with the help of River Ranch Gene when he visited in his motorhome. Building this workspace was the result of learning a lesson long ago about counting on a single major account. In addition to creating a place to park the rig, this pole barn – dubbed the hanger – provided an alternative place for paint work.  

Another friend at Overcomer’s had remnants of a nursery landscaping company among his property maintenance and cleaning services empire. Mike brought over three loads of plants, his sprinkler system installation crew and everything needed to transform the areas underneath the trees into lush garden areas.  

I began to bring home scrap marble from a regional granite yard where counter tops were made. I arranged those pieces like assembling a puzzle. They became nice garden pathways. I found a wooden swing to hang from a branch out front and created a secret place to sit and meditate. 

When I traveled through towns during my circus years, I became smug when I saw someone mow their lawn. I thought ‘what a waste of time.’ Now with rich black dirt, a head start with landscaping and encouragement from others, I developed a new addiction. I became obsessed with plants. Soon ornamental trees, hedges and flower beds transformed this slice of heaven into fodder that would have been perfect for the cover of Better Homes and Gardens.   

My mother came to visit each winter. Having a home was a big improvement to my digs at River Ranch or at Gee Gee’s farm. While decorating the interior of the house I gave the guest bedroom a musical manuscript theme just for her. Christmas became special with mother here. We went to the big Methodist church each year to enjoy a traditional holiday eve service.  

Jack arrived from Colorado about that time too. We had a campfire in the backyard when weather permitted. Our holiday was filled with laughter. The dedication of this place to friendship worked. 

Barry joined me occasionally at Lazydays and visited at my house. I thought since I now had stability our relationship would move into the next phase of commitment. For years we saw each other about a half-dozen times annually. One day she had an announcement. 

“I will never live with you in Plant City.” 

I was finding out more about this woman I loved. Apparently, a man coming in and out of her life was all she knew being raised by her aunt and grandmother. She never had a contemporary father or mother relationship modeled to her as a child. She raised her children the same way she had grown up – without a father in the house. There was a mysterious dynamic with that wonderful woman. One day she called. 

“There is someone I want you to meet,” she said over the phone.  

The mystery deepened. Then she prophesied, “I know you will like her.”  

I thought this was a trick. I proceeded to attempt to unravel the conundrum. I found out Barry had met a married man and wanted me out of the picture. I was devastated. 

The years went by. Jack became a fixture at Lazydays each winter. He helped me market and sell murals and gave the seminars. Those were busy times. I never saw my home in the daylight. The frenzy of motorhome buying was underway. I produced an endless stream of custom airbrushed images of all kinds for the couples who flocked to Lazydays.   

I began to get connected with the staff at Lazydays. I received phone calls from salesmen with referrals. One sunshiny day, I received a request to come to the front of the dealership to meet a couple who were buying a brand-new American Tradition motorhome.  

I walked from my painting pavilion down the sidewalk and into the main building. I went through corridors between office cubicles and up to the front door. In front of the dealership the salesman who called waved at me. He introduced me to Gary and Sharon who were interested in a mural.  

“Welcome to Lazydays,” I recited lingo we were all encouraged to use, “congratulations on your new motorhome.” 

  “I understand you want to personalize your coach with a one-of-a-kind airbrushed mural on the back.” 

As my interview progressed, I found out they wanted to portray their interests with both Husky show dogs and their Harley-Davidson motorcycle.  

From their request I began to visualize a snow-covered mountain background with two dogs that flanked the Harley in the center. I also found out when the coach was available for me to begin and scheduled the work to begin upon completion of the current project. 

When I started the work, I found out more about my guests. Gary and Sharon were from Raleigh, North Carolina. They had a large landscaping company. Sharon competed at dog shows across the country. The living room coach was removed to make room for all the dog cages stacked along one side.  

In addition to the motorhome, they also wanted a mural on the side of the trailer that carried their Mustang and the motorcycle. They wanted a sled dog team depicted on the sides with the likeness of seven of their dogs. I created a composition sketch with dramatic perspective to make the lead dog appear larger than all the rest coming toward the viewer. Each succeeding dog was depicted a little smaller with the sled driver standing on the runners in the background. Gary and Sharon became good friends and purchased several other motorhomes and many more murals over the years. 

Another couple from Pennsylvania wanted a mural of a pastoral meadow scene with wildflowers and a deer. As with many of these mural projects, while I painted, they sat and watched. This couple appreciated every little stroke I made. While I painted, they talked. I found out where they were from, how they met, how many grandchildren they had and that the husband always cried at weddings.  

I became especially good at creating custom images. Another couple brought their coach over from service where a large antenna had been installed on the back. He was a ham radio operator. He wanted an image of the world that would depict his ability to talk to anyone. My imagination went to work. I created an image that placed an antenna on a globe of the earth near his home with lightning bolts emanating in all directions.  

Another couple wanted the large military aircraft C-27 depicted on their coach. He had been a pilot and had numerous stories he told the admirers who came to watch the painting underway. The slang for this aircraft was ‘trash hauler.’ One story was about a mission where the aircraft was accompanied by several fighter jets.  

He made an announcement over the radio to all the pilots, “I bet I can do something that you guys can’t.” 

“Watch this.” 


The formation of aircraft continued on their course for several minutes.  

He got back on the radio, “did you see that?” 

“I got up and went to the bathroom.”   

Lots of activity took place here at Lazydays. One of the must-see places the staff mentioned to the guests was my mural art pavilion. When the salesmen gave a tour of the place in a golf cart on the way to show their guests some RV’s, they stopped and pointed out my creative activity. There was plenty to see at this place.   

After lunch, many of our guests walked out the main building along the flower lined sidewalk that threaded through the oak trees past the luxury motorhomes parked in clumps outside to go to the art pavilion to see what was going on.  

My being in the midst of the luxury motorhomes was a coupe. The folks who were here to look at the upper end coaches couldn’t help but notice Letterfly.  

Jack was the self-appointed greeter and endorsed my product. He had an American Tradition coach with a mural on the back. He confided to all our admirers all about the experience of having a mural and gave them an idea to consider about how they could get one free.  

“When you get to the point where the salesman slides the contract to buy across the table for you to sign,” he confided, “just push the contract back across the table and say “I’ll only go for this deal if you throw in a Letterfly mural for the back.” 

Because he gave two seminars a week, Jack met a lot of RV folks. Even if they weren’t buying a mural, these folks enjoyed his banter. 

Sometimes when he returned from a seminar, Jack commanded me to take him in the bus to a particular site on the property. I knew he had given the prize of free lettering to one of the guests. We jumped into the VW bus as if on an emergency run and drove over to where our guest waited. The job was usually names on the entrance door; Ron & Dora Smith, Emmitsburg, Pennsylvania etc. That sort of job could be done on the spot in under an hour and was an appreciated gesture that created good will.  

Many times, I had to modify my schedule to accommodate the customer. While underway with George and Gladys Thompson’s mural, I was told they had to leave first thing in the morning. In addition to having to stay on the job until complete, I had to finish the job in a service bay where the coach was moved to get another issue fixed. George was a pleasant man and appreciated everything we did to get him on his way. As evening turned into night, a fog settled into the area. By midnight I was ready to clear coat. Due to his need to leave in the morning I could not wait. I began to spray.  

The moisture in the air affected my clear urethane. I looked at the finish and saw the normally clear layer was milky. My heart sank. I thought to get my heat gun and discovered that I could heat the wet paint and get the blush to burn out leaving a crystal-clear finish. I was able to finish. We got the Thompson’s on their way. From that point on I never worry about humidity or how it can affect my paint because I know what to do.  

One day, while up on my stretch plank lettering on a coach, the wife came out to ask me a question. 

“Would the artist like a little bit of tibuli?” 

I recognized the name of the Mediterranean dish.  

“No,” I responded flat, “The artist would like a lot of tibuli!”    

She perked up at my surprise answer and we had a famous time. She even gave me her recipe. I was becoming a people person with my customers. My customers were couples I admired. 

In spite of being reluctant around the personnel at this place, I found a few pockets of safety with special people.  

When Jack left for Colorado, I did the seminars. While hanging around the classroom waiting for my crowd, I discovered a friend. Aditi answered the phone for the service department. Her office was next to the classroom where my seminar took place. I could visit with her while I waited for my crowd to show up.  

Between her calls, we talked and laughed about a variety of topics. Aditi was of Indian descent and introduced me to some of her culture and spiritual beliefs. One time I returned from a trip where I had enjoyed a middle eastern restaurant. I told her some of the names of the dishes I liked but she didn’t seem to recognize them. After the next time I went, I brought her the menu. 

“You idiot, this isn’t Indian,” she laughed, “this is Lebanese.” 

  One Christmas I had a special treat. My customers from Illinois were going to camp in my driveway and join me for the holidays. I met Lloyd and Norma McVey at River Ranch years ago. I painted something on everything they owned since. Their first mural was an image of one of their dump trucks on the back of their mauve colored motorhome. Norma was especially fond of pink. All their vehicles had some of this color somewhere in the exterior paint scheme.    

After a severe winter challenged their operation of a fleet of forty trucks, they made the decision to move to a warmer climate. They had a big auction and moved to Florida. Lloyd couldn’t sit still. He discovered a need for material to be delivered at specific times on golf courses and started another fleet of trucks. He only took jobs that could be delivered on time. He built a reputation for being on time and dependable. This became another successful business and a few years later he sold another fleet of forty trucks. Several times, they brought their newest RV to me at Lazydays for another mural.  

When he spec’d out a new Western-Star semi-tractor he wanted the Liberty Lady airbrushed on either side with fireworks explosions in the background. We became good friends the result of all these projects taking place at a regular pace over the years. So, the excursion to my place for Christmas was a natural. 

My friend Tom Gonder also planned to drive down from Michigan for Christmas while the Ford plant shut down for the holidays. I met Tom years ago at the county fair while he hung around and watched me paint T-shirts. He introduced himself as a sign guy. His timing for becoming a sign-maker coincided with the advent of new computer vinyl letter cutting machines that took the bread and butter away from the painters of signs. At first, I was somewhat reluctant with this friendly guy when I realized he was the enemy.  

We became friends and even figured out how to work together using vinyl with some of the carnival ride decoration projects I had underway the next summer. Tom was also an avid fan of drag racing and the tractor pulling contests at the county fairs.  

When I mentioned having guests in their RV at my home over the holidays, I also mentioned their names. 

Tom became excited, “you mean the Lloyd McVey?”    

Tom knew all about my friend. 

“Did you know that Lloyd was the first of the tractor pullers to put multiple engines on his tractor?” he rattled on, “Lloyd had three Mopar engines hooked together in a yellow super-modified tractor named the Super Banana” 

“He’s my hero.” 

At Christmas time my driveway was full of RVs. We gathered around the dining room table. I heard a story about a rival who hooked four Chevrolet engines together in a pulling tractor but still couldn’t beat McVey. I was in awe as Lloyd and Tom traded stories of drag racing and tractor pulling. I couldn’t keep up with them. These two talked about pulling tractors until the wee hours of the night. That Christmas stands out from all the rest when I recollect and compare fond times with good friends. 

Back at Lazydays the mural painting resumed. The pace was relentless. I enjoyed interacting with the endless stream of new couples. Each couple had a story.  One couple from Seattle wanted a mural of their famous skyline made distinct with the Space Needle. They also wanted Mount Rainier in the background. Because of the actual proximity of those features, I used artistic license to create an image with these features appearing together. 

Although social reluctance promoted my withdrawal into the creative realm, as my talent grew, people were attracted to me and I thrived. Through that series of people, I found benefit, emerged from my shell and grew. My life had come full circle. The lessons learned on the road brought me to a special place that also introduced me to the concept of home.  

Transformation had begun as the result of AA. I became interested in others. My customers pursued a dream. They launched themselves onto the road of adventure. I found that road as a teen. Now I was an example to them and a source of encouragement for their aspiration. I found new purpose. I started to see the beauty in others. This was behavior that my mother modeled.  

I found the solution was to see beauty and uplift others. I became a people person. The solution was taking a risk and becoming connected to my community. The reflected love returned me to my roots. My mother became my friend. We talked on a regular basis. 

Through our ongoing intimacy I was blessed again. My eyes were opened. I found magic all around me. I realized I have much to be thankful for. A miracle occurred. A whole series of people had blessed me on this long uphill climb. I had surrounded myself with people who were interested in my success.  Sure, I went through a lot of grief and unfortunate circumstances but my playful spirit came to the surface too. Others were why I succeeded. I have others to thank for getting me here.  I realized that life wasn’t good or bad; life is a blend of good and bad. 

My Return


When the summer was over, the time came to head south. I couldn’t wait to see how the RV dealership construction had progressed. I loaded the stock and headed south.  

The demand for high quality airbrushed murals placed me in an earning position that made the pursuit of opportunities to perform with the circus pointless. The remainder of the summer that led up to the Blue Bird rally in October became a blur of motorhome murals. The Blue Bird rally was on the way south.  

The Luce family had sold the company and the dynamic at Wanderlodge changed. I had learned a lot through this stepping stone of my career. I was grateful for the boost received and the opportunities I had found. I enjoyed what became my last Blue Bird rally. Then I made haste to return to Lazydays. 

  With those rallies complete, I returned to Gee Gee’s farm in Florida. At Lazydays I resumed my busy schedule of making murals, giving seminars and treated every situation with reverence. 

I continued to live in my horse trailer. I found out about a large horse barn a mile from Lazydays. Boarding my horse would free me up to work late. Souveran summed up his performing career in a single moment when I led him into that big comfortable barn filled with working cow and pleasure horses – he breathed one big sigh of relief. 

George Aldridge was the tall, strapping cowboy who ran this barn. His specialty was reining horses though he came from a lineage of meat cutters. The seventeen-acre property was once a destination for cattle to get cut up. The building where that activity took place was razed to make room as urban sprawl required the road out front to become eight lanes.  

George had a valuable piece of property. He knew someday the corner would fetch a handsome sum. For now, the large arenas and riding areas were utilized by cowboys who came to not only learn something from George but to put their horses in training with this gifted horseman. George began preparing a place in Ocala for his eventual home.  

My horse became my hobby. After work, I took a break from the rigors of painting on motorhomes. I spent time in the evenings perfecting trot work, canter work and the flexibility of horse and rider. This work began over two decades ago. I started with a 4-H horse in Clarklake and over the years utilized an impressive series of mentors.  

I started taking dressage lessons with an attractive dark-haired product of the sixties with a tired voice. Sharon was from Michigan and knew many of the dressage people I knew. Sharon had a precise way of sharing what she saw with a command of language with which to get her observation across.  

Our lessons were mostly recreational, as now my role as the resident artist at Lazydays took priority. I had no desire to beat myself up on the road with other opportunities to perform. I enjoyed the shift in my horsemanship focus. Perhaps to sharpen my skills as dressage rider for some other purpose would be practical, but the reality remained that this was now my hobby.    

While I lived in my horse trailer at Gee Gee’s, I resigned to the fact that I would probably always be living in a horse trailer. A circus family from Russia camped there too. I learned some of their language and enjoyed their food.  

One of the first men I met at Lazydays was also an AA member. Lee went out of his way to welcome me to the company. He also told me about a healing ministry called Overcomers at a nearby church. With my permanent painting situation, I got plugged into weekly social activities. I began to regularly attend this evening gathering.  

Overcomer’s was a blend of the twelve steps mixed with gospel. I became an avid member and progressed into facilitator at my men’s group. I remained dedicated to this ministry for several years.  

Being an artist in a permanent situation also provided me with the ability to see Barry on a regular basis. The drive to Anna Maria Island became a welcome respite. Barry and I attended local plays, orchestra concerts and the Opera at Sarasota.  

I learned that Tom Selleck had purchased a home on the island. One sunny afternoon I made myself busy. I picked up sticks and tidied up Barry’s yard. A week later I talked to her on the phone. Barry couldn’t contain her laughter. She reported getting a phone call from one of her curious neighbors.  

“What was Tom Selleck doing in your yard?” 

I attended the Lazydays monthly company meetings that occurred early before work where the entire staff of four hundred employees assembled in the cafeteria. I watched as new employees were welcomed into the company and salesmen received awards for selling large amounts of motorhomes. I was amazed to be part of this large company but also noticed social dynamics that reminded me of the playground of my youth.  

I felt awkward in that setting. There were too many people. I wanted to fit in. I attended the company meetings but never did receive the welcome gesture the new employees received. 

I arrived at Lazydays before sunrise and often worked past sunset. The rigorous pace of mural production remained steady throughout the year. Out at my studio, in the peaceful setting beneath old growth trees I had a safe place. This was my think tank for ideas. With a steady stream of customers, I stayed in production mode, I was happy.  

I attended the weekly CSI class, taught by Don Wallace. He introduced us to the foundation principles that built this company. He encouraged the use of common sense and introduced the hospitality mindset. Keeping these success principles foremost in my mind mixed with healing perceptions acquired at Overcomer’s. These learning opportunities lifted my attitude and perception. As I remained intentional with my attitude and regard for others I was lifted into a new realm of gratitude.  

One concept stressed by Mister Wallace was to reach out to another department head whenever a problem occurred that was out of our league. There were times when this happened to me. My entire career I handled everything myself. Here with this large company when I had such a problem, I entered into the scary realm of interacting with others. 

  Moving into these exchanges gave me an opportunity to grow. Sometimes I experienced the desired result but other times I witnessed behavior that actually ran counter to what Mister Wallace taught. Many personal agendas were the opposite of what would benefit the company and our clients. 

Fortunately, I had Jack. He was familiar with corporate insanity and coached me on how to go about getting things done in this environment. Regardless, these lessons on how to get along with others augmented the healing work started years ago with AA. These new lessons rocketed me into another chapter of my life.  

I found an ally in the marketing department. Tony was helpful with adding Letterfly to the amenities in all the Lazydays marketing. I continued with the marketing strategies started at River Ranch that got me here. I generated special brochures, photo books with examples of RV art for the customers waiting lounge and the sales staff. Jack helped me with selling concepts like providing a cash spiff to a salesman whose referral purchased a mural. I wrote, published (again with the help of the Ridge Printing company) and mailed out a printed newsletter to my client base all the news of this incredible situation at Lazydays. 

I discovered many reasons to become relational in this setting. New friendships blossomed as I tried new ways of connecting. A little at a time, I became a company man. Letterfly and Lazydays would grow together for many years to come. 

Corn Country Show Biz


The Circus Hall of Fame was situated on the one-time home of several touring railroad circuses.  Many artifacts remain from the historic winter quarters of this large circus conglomeration that resided here a hundred years ago. A circus fan aspired to make this a tourist attraction. He wanted live circus attractions among the old wagons and artifacts. A big top was erected next to the last of the remaining barns that at one time housed the animals. Another barn housed wagons, costumes, and had a sail loft where canvas production used to take place. 

Now, a handful of performers were employed each summer to provide two shows a day. The single location for the summer meant a vacation from the travel regimen I was used to. I liked the idea of having a stationary place to work my performing animals but from the get-go, I discovered that the momentum and function of this place was fractured and would probably remain so through to the end. 

By this time my animals had solid routines. I had appropriate costumes, clever choreography, patter and pratfalls. The mule act developed into a fun act that required the participation of the announcer as a straight man to support the comedy with the lines that I had written.  

With rehearsal appropriate, John Fugate, the ringmaster, deflected my request by declaring, “We are all professionals here. We don’t need to rehearse.”  

We entered into our performing regimen of two shows a day with John fuddling his lines as he read off index cards in front of the audience. The plethora of mistakes he produced proved frustrating to me as he missed crucial parts of the comedy. Fortunately, the high school horse act did not require his participation.  

With the use of a live organist, I developed an interesting interlude for the middle of the horse act. After the first two segments of the routine and after the bow, I assumed a striking pose in the middle of the ring to acknowledge the audience. The announcer then invited everyone to participate. 

“Please join Souveran the horse as he high-steps to the music,” John bellowed, “clap along as he dances for you.” 

As the musical strains of the Mexican Hat Dance began, I had Sir walk sideways a few steps and at the right moment in the song, had him do a double leg extension coordinated to the music which prompted the audience to clap two times. Then, as the music resumed, we walked sideways the other direction and did it again. This was repeated four times to complete the stanza that resulted in a logical conclusion and good reception.  

The conclusion of the act was next. By this time in his career a few elevated strides of the high trot occurred, followed by our now consistent canter work. After his halt at the front of the ring we bowed.  

With the concluding announcement complete, we backed through the center of the ring. In front of the curtain at the back of the ring, we took another bow prior to our exit. In spite of the constant bumbling of the ringmaster, the grassy venue, permanent stables and luxury of two shows a day all summer, I had a wonderful opportunity to perform and enjoy my animals. 

Some of the personnel at this place, starting with the director, were hopeless. They were retired fans who wore clown faces and had no clue about this culture. In spite of their pathetic contribution they still wanted to be treated like stars. The elephant guy seemed to resent being here. He had inherited an elephant from his father along with a couple of camels. In contrast to the exact efforts of most animal caretakers, his work ethic was sloppy. The elephant got loose one night and walked over to the water faucet and turned it on. In the morning the entire floor of the barn including my horse and mule stalls was flooded. I didn’t do anything wrong but I had to shovel out the mess his elephant created. He never did apologize or offer to provide replacement shavings. He just moped. He didn’t like anything about taking care of animals.  

Late that summer his wife and daughter joined him. Little Dallas fell in love with my horse. She hung around and offered to help me groom him. I’d lift her up onto his back so she could brush his mane.  

Often times after my act she waited by the back door. She knew after I dismounted, she could sit on him and get a ride while I lead him back to the barn. 

Not everyone at the Circus Hall of Fame was dysfunctional. Circus animal training greats Vince and Pom Pom were here with their collection of tigers. The steady pace of loving animal care provided the heartbeat in the backyard. We were all used to the hectic pace of travel and one day stands. With ample time here for the summer, we all found extra activities to keep ourselves busy. Michelangelo Nock was here and his enthusiasm was infectious. Having grown up in this business, he displayed a flexibility and a regard for others that helped ease any tension that occurred.   

I had spare time each evening and sought to develop new skills.  I hired a tutor to teach me computer skills. I went into town to make friends. I went to AA meetings. My life had changed as the result and I now had nine years sober.  

  One Sunday morning I met a great guy at the Presbyterian Church and began to attend the weekly Lions Club meetings with him. Tom was amazed that I performed with my dancing horse and comedy mule act at the Circus Hall of Fame for the summer.   

The Lions Club of Peru, Indiana met in the banquet room at a local restaurant every Thursday. During those meetings they searched for ways to benefit the community. I attended as a guest of my new friend Tom.  

Among the activities at the meeting were sending encouraging notes in greeting cards for people we didn’t even know. Each member received three cards and three envelopes. A notebook with names and addresses of unfortunates were passed around for us to copy from. There were also announcements about others in unfortunate circumstances who would benefit from our encouragement.  

During those weekly meetings the Lions considered new ideas to benefit others. When an assisted living home for those suffering from terminal medical conditions came up, they discussed possibilities. I had an idea. I volunteered to bring Betty the mule and perform for them. The plan was to work my comedy mule act for the assembled patients outside on the lawn and then take the mule inside and visit patients who couldn’t leave their rooms.  

The Lions Club members welcomed this idea. This created a stir with most of the club except one, a curmudgeon who seemed grumpy about everything. Harold scowled at the idea. 

The rest of the group asked about doing this little show and made a list of what was needed. Soon volunteers came up with a P.A. system, wooden stakes and ribbon to cordon off a ring area. They made plans to coordinate this event with the personnel at the facility and one member acquired a stock trailer to move Betty. This activity fit into my schedule after the matinee on an upcoming Sunday.     

The entire club rallied to make this work. On show day several men arrived early to stake off a circular area for the ring and stretched boundary ribbon around the circle. They acquired chairs for the patients who could walk. My friend Tom became the announcer. He learned the lines of the straight man to support the comedy. On show day he became acquainted with the P.A. system while I showed Betty the venue.  

Other club members went inside the facility to get our audience. They pushed patients in wheelchairs outside and onto the grass to completely surround the ring. When our audience was intact, we began our show.  

Tom the ringmaster began with his introduction, “Ladies and gentlemen, we welcome you here today to our little show.” 

“Introducing at this time,” Tom bellowed, “direct from California gold mining country, here to launch their career in show business, please welcome Gold Dust and the Old Cuss.”  

I led Betty into the makeshift ring and waved at all the patients. Our routine began with liberty work. I had Betty trot around the ring, reverse direction, trot the new course a few rounds and then reverse again to a stop. Since there was no ring curb, we didn’t do the ring curb walk. Tom set the hurdle in the ring. I gave Betty the cue to lead off and she resumed running around the ring.  

With the hurdle in the ring the desired response was obvious but she was trained to do otherwise. As Betty neared the hurdle she veered off and avoided the jump. I acted as if in disbelief. I feigned frustration. I gave her the benefit of the doubt. As she rounded the ring and came up to the hurdle the second time she veered away again. I acted miffed and took the whips in both hands. I bent them as if in frustration. As she neared the hurdle for the third time, I shook my finger at her and she jumped the hurdle to the delight of all in attendance. Tom was really having fun. Then just for good measure Betty rounded the ring one more time. As she neared the hurdle the fourth time, she veered around it again as if being mischievous. After I stopped her at the back of the ring, we took a bow.  

Next Betty came to the center of the ring. While she stood next to me, I gestured to the audience as if I was going to have her do another trick. While I looked away from what she was doing, Betty kneeled and then laid down.   While I made gestures to the audience, Tom called out to me. 

“Hey Cuss,” he stated, “it looks like you may have a problem.” 

I looked around and acted surprised to see the mule lying flat on the ground.  

“I think she fainted,” Tom surmised. 

“You are going to have to get her up,” he suggested. 

I stepped away, scratched my head and acted as if thinking about what to do next.  

Tom spoke up, “What are you going to do to get her out?” 

I perked up as if a thought had occurred. I stepped over her, reached down and grasped one front leg and the ring on the bit in her mouth. I pulled gently. I inverted her onto her back. She soon had four legs sticking up. I straddled her while she was upside down to steady her. I took her front feet in my two hands.  

“How are you going to get her out like that?” Tom asked. 

“I’m going to peddle her out,” I responded and gyrated her front feet in twin circular paths as if they were bicycle pedals.  

This generated a laugh especially from Tom who enjoyed every minute. I then laid her back down onto her side. I had to wait until he calmed down enough to remember his next lines. 

“You’re still going to have to do something,” he blurted between laughs. 

This was when I went into position next to her between her outstretched legs. I faked losing my balance, waved my arms and fell backwards over her and did a backwards somersault. This was her cue to go into the sit up position.   

I got up and dusted myself off. Tom continued with the patter. 

“Hey she’s sitting up,” Tom reported, “she’s sitting up.”  

“Hey Cuss, she’s sitting up!” He was excited. 

I scanned the situation and blurted out, “Oh no she’s not!”   

“Well if she’s not sitting up, then what is she doing?” 

“She’s sitting down.” 

That prompted a groan from Tom and the audience. 

“Cuss,” he continued, “you are going to have to do something to get her up.”  

I stood at the front of the ring and scratched my head as if in thought.  

“Hey Cuss, why don’t you just pull her up?” Tom wondered, “just give her a jerk.” 

   I went in front of her, lifted the reins up over her head and stretched them out in front of her in preparation for my next move. Two of the Lion’s club members had noisemakers and waited until my next move to add sound effects to the fun. I firmly planted my feet.   Being careful to not hurt her in anyway, I exaggerated a gesture with my entire body that looked like I had given her a tremendous yank. The attempt did not produce any result. 

“Give her another jerk,” Tom commanded. 

I repeated my wild antic to no avail. 

“And another jerk.” 

I did it again. 

“Another,” Tom repeated. 

Nothing. 

“Well Cuss, it looks like you’re the jerk.” 

Tom paused for effect while he thought of another idea. 

“Hey Cuss,” he continued, “why don’t you try to lift the back end up and get it even with the front?” 

I resigned to this idea and shrugged my shoulders. I pondered his suggestion and moved into position behind Betty. I did a quick muscle-man pose to flex my muscles. Then I leaned over and placed my hands beneath her rump. I strained and made another gesture that coincided with the funny noise makers and a loud grunt. 

“Try it again,” Tom said. 

I grunted along with the funny sounds again. 

“One more time”  

Groan. 

I limped away, stooped over, like I may have over-exerted myself. I walked clutching my back as if it were hurt. 

“I guess that is not going to work,” Tom observed before he reminded me, “you are going to have to do something!” 

He repeated, “you are going to have to do something to get her out of here.”. 

At this time, I walked over in front of her. As if under pressure with frustrated anger, a thought came to mind. I began swinging my clenched fist in a big circle as if to hit her. 

“NO! Cuss!” Tom intervened, “not that.” 

I relaxed and stepped away.  

“Hey Cuss,” Tom continued, “why don’t you think of something nice to say?”  

  I acted quizzical, as if I didn’t know what he talked about. 

“You know,” he continued, “something nice. Like the magic word.”  

I still acted miffed. 

“You don’t know what the magic word is?” Tom spewed forth, “I bet the boys and girls know what the magic word is.”  

He scanned the audience and shouted, “Don’t you?” 

They responded as well as they could. 

“Well what is it?” He yelled. 

The crowd responded “please!” 

I acted enlightened.  

I moved from the position maintained throughout this portion of the act in the quadrant of her starboard side. My position in the ring was the cue for her to remain sitting. When I moved around behind her, I came into an area where she saw me with her other eye – the get-up eye. She knew to get up next but not until I gave her the cue to do so.  

“On three everybody,” Tom shouted, “let’s say the magic word.” 

“One.” 

“Two.” 

“Three.” 

I placed my hands together as if to pray and bent my knees in an ask gesture as everyone shouted, “Please!” 

Betty got up. 

I stepped in front of her as if to take all the credit as the audience applauded. My posterior in front of her was the cue to give me a nudge with her nose.   

I exaggerated being nudged out of the way and then spun around to acknowledge her being there.  

“Now that you have said please,” Tom continued, “why don’t you say thank you?” 

I pulled out the carrot that was in my back pocket the whole time and showed it to the audience. Then I gave it to Betty. That got a big hand.  When the applause subsided, Tom turned to the audience with his question. 

“Have you ever seen a dancing mule?” 

I picked up the whips that had laid near the back all this time and got ready to lead-off again.  

“Maestro please,” Tom gestured to the man with the music machine.   

The music began. I used a wonderful orchestra piece for this part of the act that started with a little dainty sequence that implied a ballerina routine.  

As Betty rounded the ring, at the right place I gave her the cue to waltz. The waltz was where she turned 360 degrees in her tracks. Betty loved to waltz. We repeated the waltz movement several times until the music led up to the beginning of the crescendo portion of the orchestra movement.  

I stopped her at the back of the ring and gave her the command for the hind leg walk.   She stood up as straight as a candle and took careful steps that resulted in her walking from the back of the ring all the way to the front.  

The music culminated in a grand conclusion as we neared the front of the ring. I let her come back down and gave her the cue to bow. With her taking a bow, I styled to the audience for applause. When I gave her the cue to come up from the bow, I stepped in front of her. That was her cue to bite the rag attached to the back of my break-away pants. As she bit that rag, I pulled the buckle that released the securing Velcro closure. I stepped forward as the pants released making it appear that she had pulled them off.  

The backside of my inner costume was made to look like long underwear with the flap on the back. The flap had the words the end stitched onto them. I became frantic as if embarrassed. I moved to the center of the ring and took a wide stance with my legs apart and my backside to the audience.     

I whistled. That was Betty’s cue to come running. She came right at me and put her head down and ran between my legs. She scooped me up onto her back as she went. From that position – I sat on her back and waved – we rode out of the ring.  

Tom gave our concluding announcement, “ladies and gentlemen there you have it.” 

“The talented and entertaining personalities brought to you direct from the California gold mines,” he bellowed, “let’s send them off with a great big round of applause.” 

There was no reason to be in hurry when the act was over. Afterwards Betty and I browsed and said hello to many of the patients in wheel chairs. One lady spoke up to me. 

“I’d love to pet your mule but I have M.S. and can’t move my arms.” 

I guided Betty close to her and placed her head on this woman’s shoulder. Betty seemed to understand and carefully laid her head against her. The lady wept with joy. The local newspaper cameraman captured this moment in a photo that showed up in the paper.  

When the act was over, our plan was to take the mule into the care facility to personally visit the patients who couldn’t come outside to see the show.       

By this time the Lions had dismantled the ribbon ring and put away the sound system. The army of caretakers pushed wheelchairs back into the facility. Those able to walk went back inside after they stopped to see the mule.  

The Lions club members took bags of carrots into the facility and went into each room. They gave each patient a carrot for Betty. Betty would go from room to room and get a snack at each stop. This created excitement in the place. The Lions seemed to be just as excited.  

When I led Betty in through the foyer to begin going from room to room, I was stopped by a woman who wanted to chat. As I stood and answered her questions, one Lions Club member saw this friendly rapport was holding up the works. Wouldn’t you know it. It was grumpy old Harold. 

“Gimme that mule,” he demanded. 

I watched as Harold gently led the mule down the hallway to get started. Sure enough, they disappeared into the first room. After a few moments Betty emerged with her new friend and went into the next room.  

The afternoon went well. Betty enjoyed the tour of the place and all the carrots. This became a bonding experience for all of us, especially Harold.  

I received the report at the next Lions Club meeting that the patients were still talking about the day that the little mule came, did all the circus tricks for them and even visited them in their rooms.   

Overall, the summer tending my stock, performing twice a day, joining the community and making progress with other areas of my life qualified as a delightful experience. Right on schedule too. The largest RV dealership in the country had made it attractive for me to be their resident artist. This opportunity was priority. The severe incompetence of the Circus Hall of Fame provided a reality check; it got the desire to perform with the circus out of my system. 

Momentum

The time spent in this lovely oak hammock became, not only a haven for creativity, but a gathering place for guests to be entertained while they waited for repairs to be completed. Others perused the new motor homes on display at this incredible destination, the largest RV dealership anywhere. Each day, many guests made the pilgrimage to the Letterfly painting pavilion to see what was going on. 

R.J. took a personal interest in my creative offerings. During his frequent walks around the property, he stopped and talked with me about what else we could do for the guests. I began to think in terms of new services in addition to personal murals for the back of the coach. Our ideas for entry doors became little dog portraits, gold leaf monograms and hand lettered inscriptions of all kinds. I also began to pinstripe cars and trucks and even create spectacular graphics to make the tow car match the rig. 

The motor home buying frenzy was on. Folks were selling their homes to become full-timers, those who lived in their coach year-round. Money was available to borrow and flowed like water. Jack and I enjoyed the crowds that flocked to see what was going on at this place. 

We started each day with breakfast at a nearby diner. His argumentative style of conversation took getting used to. Once I realized this was his style of relationship, I caught on and entered the fray. Soon, aggressive banter took place between us at the restaurant and became another source of fascination for the onlookers he thrived on. 

Curious people stopped by to admire the work that took place. Those were the days of painting plenty of eagles. This was partly due to the patriotic nature of the icon and also due to the name of the Fleetwood motor home flagship; The American Eagle.   

Sometimes they asked, “what did you paint yesterday?”  

During my thirty-year career, my mind remained occupied with imagining that which does not yet exist. I don’t try to remember what I just did. I look into the future to visualize possibilities and unique new goals. In an effort to provide a helpful answer to those curious admirers and to have a private laugh between us, Jack and I came up with a standard answer to their query about what we did yesterday. 

“An eagle.”  

We laughed. We figured we had a fifty-fifty chance of being right. 

Jack fortified his tough guy persona with stories from when he was a Dade County cop, Air Force guy, Bail Bondsman, Stock Broker and later as a car salesman. The larger than life episodes kept anyone who listened, gripping the edge of their seat. Jack was an avid and talented story teller.  

Although toughness permeated the surface, Jack had a heart filled with love and dedication for the many people, principles and activities he was immersed in.  

“My father told me long ago,” Jack revealed, “life is a little bit tragic, and a little bit magic. Cherish the magic.” 

That was the sentiment that graced his motor home and was the name of his book.     

Those days were fun. The art pavilion was a gathering place for the curious to see the creativity taking place each day and to engage in friendly banter with Jack. I was up on the walk plank with an airbrush behind a motor home all day. Jack sat in his folding chair in his jacket and shorts. 

Jack arrived to accompany me at Lazydays at the perfect time. His familiarity with how corporate throngs work and his confidence in this setting provided the perfect segue for me to find my way. He recognized my need. Jack became my big brother and coached me in regard to producing apropos behavior with the staff of the large corporation, maintaining a positive mentality, attitude and appreciation for my role in this situation.  

A little at a time, I entered into relationship with department heads. Each week I attended our class on customer service instruction, called CSI, taught by the founder. In that situation I received instruction and encouragement. The founder’s son Don Wallace taught rules for success, encouraged the use of common sense and reinforced our overall purpose – to make customers for life. 

  I acquired positive, ennobling concepts for practical thinking, the use of common sense and dedication to provide the customer with an outstanding product. We were taught to go an extra length with every task to make our customers experience something that would insure they wouldn’t think of shopping anywhere else.  

As I became comfortable in my role as resident artist and interacted with fellow personnel, I received inspiration for additional offerings. One employee mentioned an idea about my giving a seminar that would be an interesting value-added attraction for the guests to enjoy at Lazydays.  

I was inspired. I began to prepare information about RV mural art. I filled a few sheets of paper with notes about facts important to me. The inaugural seminar was soon on the calendar. As the time approached, Jack returned from another trip and planned to attend. Two couples showed up for my first seminar. Not being much of a speaker at that time, I simply sat down at the table with my guests and read the notes I had prepared. Jack slumped down in his chair and drew his hat down over his eyes. 

            When the seminar was over, he had something to say.  

He announced, “From now on I will give the seminars.” 

I was shocked. 

            “You can’t possibly do that,” I squawked, “you don’t know anything about painting murals on motor homes.” 

            “I don’t have to,” he boasted, “I can make up an entertaining seminar on the spot about virtually anything.”  

He continued, “I’ve been giving seminars on a variety of topics for years.”  

Confidence radiated from his being. He took a stance that invited further defiance. 

“It matters naught that I know nothing about painting a mural.” 

            I was about to enter the realm of having Jack  teach me the art of giving a seminar,  

            Jack aimed his creative mind at structuring a series of entertaining concepts to include in his talk about the aspects of motor home art. Fun was priority as well as an opportunity to enlighten and interact with the audience. He included revealing stories about being a mural customer himself to endorse the experience. He even handled getting the seminars logged onto the Lazydays activity calendar. Two of these talks took place each week. His seminars couldn’t help but improve.  

            Jack loved an audience. He soon made posters and taped them on the entry doors in high traffic areas, on bulletin boards and in the café. These posters announced the seminar he aptly named; “Rolling Art,…Why a Mural?”  

I was somewhat anxious about trashing up the dealership with tacky flyers, but my attempt to voice concern went unnoticed. The frenzy of his activity not only filled the classroom with curious RVers, but the seminar became the most popular and heavily attended of all that took place. I resigned my concern and joined the fray. I created attractive poster art for Jack to use that included his idea to generate even more excitement; “win a mural!”  

Jack poked fun at everyone that attended. He found out where they called home and made jokes about those places. Quick to laud the efforts of military veterans, a big part of his message included popular notions of patriotism and gratitude for the freedom we enjoy, thanks to the efforts of those in the military. 

            Jack’s seminar started with an announcement, “I am going to first tell you what this seminar is not going to be about. This is not going to be a situation where I try to sell you something. I am here to share with you the experience of having a mural on the back of my motorhome and how that experience adds to the fun of roaming across this great country.”   

To introduce his audience to what they would learn, he established a series of steps that used a clever visual aid on the chalkboard. He used MURALS as an acronym. Each letter stood for an important concept. He prompted his audience to guess each word and gave them a hint of what each letter stood for with humorous results.  

He encouraged audience participation for two reasons; one, he wanted them ready with ideas later in the seminar, and two; often their guesses became opportunities for funny retorts as he continued to poke fun at everyone. His example of humorous responses introduced me to an effective way to communicate to an audience.  

After he introduced the guests as to what to expect by having rolling art on their motor home, he explained the steps that went into the production of a high-quality mural. This was to produce savvy consumers. Then he introduced them to what they could expect from having a mural on their motor home, from the other drivers on the highway and their fellows at the campgrounds while they travel this wonderful land. 

            The seminar concluded with a contest. One contestant – usually a combat veteran Jack selected and got approval from the rest of the audience – was asked a couple of ridiculous unanswerable questions. The contest was yet another way to add suspense while Jack poked fun at the current popular television game show final answer. After the grand prize question was revealed – a super simple query – his guest won a certificate for some free lettering.  

            The enthusiasm Jack had for this task was epidemic and became part of the conversation that swept through the staff and the population that frequented this place. The best result of his efforts were the curious RVers who followed him out to the mural pavilion afterwards to schedule mural work. For that I was grateful.  

            The result of witnessing how Jack composed and handled this seminar provided me with a big boost. When Jack returned to Colorado in the spring, I began presenting the seminar. As the result of his example, I created a talk that fit my style; an entertaining and enlightening talk of my own.  

Things were hopping. Lazydays acquired an additional fifty acres. Expansion began. The main building would get bigger. Two hundred service bays were planned and construction of a giant campgrounds began. As the season wound down into the dog days of early summer, I headed north to pursue my passion